Straight Addiction Part 2

I believe that I have an addictive personality because I can looooooove something for a couple weeks and then discard it like its nothing. Well, my current addiction is relationship articles....don't ask my why? but I find myself spending hours reading articles on how to attract men and what flirting techniques to use. I mean its not like I'm reading this stuff so that I can effectively find a guy, its actually a form of entertainment to read some of the things women do to get men. Personally, I know that as long as I stay open-minded love will eventually find me--so I'm not worried nor do I really think about relationships that often. Even though a relationship is not at the top of my priority list I've seem to have read nearly 50 or more articles about the subject. Maybe subconsciously I want to be in a relationship and reading articles about it is the physical manifestation-- allowing me to live vicariously through the writers of these articles. Idk...relationships were never my strong point (if you've read my previous posts you would know that) so reading these articles gives me a view into the dating world...a world I've never managed to explore due to reasons only God knows. I mean I have always been a lovable person but could never manage to find a guy that liked me nor friends that would hang with me. Like any normal teenager I assumed their was something wrong with me and that's why I had no friends or gentleman callers (lol). But it wasn't until my sophomore year in college that my friend told me maybe it has nothing to do with you and all to do with what God didn't want in your life.  That is something that I hadn't thought of and that comment brought light to many of my childhood experiences. Because when I was younger I craved peer approval and probably would have done a lot to get it and God knew that, thus separating me from the very people that I wanted to get close to. In an effort to keep me on the path I was put on. Thinking back to my jr high years...I would have been into some crazy things if I could actually get the friends that I wanted. So it makes me think....even when God is not the head of your life He still protects you from anything that will separate you from His will and His way. I guess being addicted to these articles is normal because everyone is curious about something they know nothing about. This will soon pass and I will be on to the next one....until then deuces