God Favors Me

With no job and no summer classes I have had ample time to reflex on my faith in God. I have been an avid church-goer since I was born, but it wasn't until last year that I truly began to look deep within myself to see where I stood with God. I mean you can go to church all day but if you don't have a personal relationship with God, what are you really getting out of the service? Listening to a pastor minister to you is necessary and essential to growing in your walk with God, but if once you leave the church you return to your normal, "worldly" ways you have missed point. Essentially, that's what I was doing--just going to church (because my mom made me) and sitting there counting down the minutes until I could go back home. It wasn't until my sophomore year in college that I made moves to change that. I had met some wonderful women that were confident in their walk with God, which made me more open to changing my views of church and fundamentally, God. I began to learn that God is more than just a all-knowing, creator of Heaven and Earth--he is also a protector, father, and friend. When you have no one else, God is there to help fight your battles-- no matter how big or small, even if we think that we can handle it ourselves. Discovering this has helped me get through some rough times and resolve some of my deep-seeded issues with trust, my father, and acceptance. As I grow in  my faith, I have realized that with Him by my side ALL things are possible. I also had to realize that becoming a God-fearing kingdom citizen will not happen over night..... I just took it one day at a time and soon enough I have learned to trust and love God whole-heartedly and each day I try to become more and more like Him so that His works can shine through me.
One of my favorite gospel songs is "God Favors Me" by Hezekiah Walker because it basically says that no matter what is happening to you right now, don't worry because you have favor and at the end of your struggles you will come out stronger. This song has helped me realize that my issues with money, people, myself will be worked by God-- if I let Him. Giving over all power over my life and trust to Him is something that I struggle with everyday, but I'm consistently reminded that He will never leave me & that makes it so much easier.