The Plot Thickens.....

Soooooooooo as the school year progresses, I find myself becoming more and more confused about my situation with my crush.Each day I feel that I fall deeper and deeper into a pit of distraction, in which I find myself spending hours thinking and dreaming about him. The weird thing is that I don't believe I find him physically attractive and he seems to be a disgrace to his organization, but I still can't help but think about him. A friend suggested that the reason that I am in this limbo of like/dislike is because I have not invested time into learning more about him. Being stuck in my rebellious ways I don't want to know more about him, I just want to get him out of my head. Sometimes I wonder if God put him on my heart for a reason and I'm just not understanding because the dreams are becoming more frequent, yet less about him. Now he is just a fixture in my dreams instead of the main attraction. The interesting part to me is that I believe that we are both so stuck in this "Its whatever" mentality that nothing will come of "possible" emotions because neither of us are willing to make moves. Personally I have become convinced that all I need to do is graduate and move to St. Louis and all my problems will be solved, but I fear it won't be that simple. But who knows what is to come of my little crush on this Kappa man.