The End of an Era....the crush is over!

To say that God works in mysterious ways would be an under statement. He has really been working in my life specifically in the area of men and relationships. For the last year and a half I have been trying to make sense of this crush that I had. And it wasn't until a few minutes ago did I learn what God was trying to show me. He was trying to show me that I have a void in my heart in which needs to be filled with God. The way He went about showing me this was extravagant because He opened my heart just enough for me to begin to crush on someone, but needed for me to grow in my faith before He could take to the next step. Then once I was strong in God, He allowed me to question my reasoning behind liking such a random guy. Once I completely trusted in God I was able to put a demand on his spirit and if we were meant to be in each other's lives for any reason, not just romantically.....he will contact me by Friday at midnight. But since I am new to this "demand" thing I was slightly skeptical that God works in this way. Sooooooo weirdly enough the day was moving along like any other then randomly my friend asked me to go to this toga party hosted by my crush's organization.....even though she doesn't like parties let alone house parties.
Of course we go.....after being at the party for at least 45 minutes my crush passes my friend, taps her on the shoulder, and says hi......but when he sees me he stops right in front of me for an extended period of time after he says hi........weird right?......so then its getting really awkward so I tap his hand like to say "hey I acknowledge your existence can you please move b/c this is weird."  Then he walked away. It wasn't until later that night that I realized that, that awkward moment showed me that the demand I put on him worked and that we are not meant to be in each other's lives.
Sooooo this rest of the weekend I was not as happy as I normally am and while at church I discovered that it is because I have a void in my heart that I did not know was there. After speaking to my roommate she told me that maybe I needed him to come into my life so that God could show me that I have a void because you can't fix a problem you don't know exists.
That's where I stand crushless, but even more excited about where God is trying to take me. Therefore, its the end of an era but its the start of a new journey........a journey to a whole heart, filled with God.